Celebrating My Selfie

Celebrating My Selfie

Last week for my 44th birthday I got a home TRX fitness system. I decided that there is no better time to be in my best shape than now- plus the hashtag of fit forties just sounds so catchy. #fitforties

Not that I really know what to do with hashtags, but…anyway.

I took a picture of myself doing TRX to share with my Facebook wellness group. What happened next is extremely disappointing. Before I posted the pic, I proceeded to scrutinize my picture from head to toe <insert sigh here>. I know!!!  I’m aggravated with me too. Like Car Sense’s multi-point vehicle inspection, I tore myself apart. Flabby triceps, over bubbly behind, flat chest, short torso. These thoughts really caught me off guard, especially given that:

1) I’m in the best shape of my life having maintained a 40 pound weight loss for the past 4 years.

2) I understand and accept that I’m way more than just my body. “Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.” 2 Corinthians 4:16

3) I arm myself daily with Stuart Smalley affirmations- “I’m good enough, I’m smart enough and doggone it, people like me.” If you don’t know who Stuart Smalley is, Google the Saturday Night Live skits, they’re good for a laugh, or at least I think so.

4) I know deep down in my soul that God loves me for me.

[pullquote width=”300″ float=”right”]Some days I just need to slow down, to bask in and be awed by His great love for me.  To remember that I am a unique creation, a one of a kind original work, signed by God, sealed with love.[/pullquote]As I write this, I’m irked at how far I’ve come yet how (obviously) far I need to go in showing myself some love. I’m agitated at this whole situation because my belief system says otherwise. I believe that God not only surrounds me, He is within me. Therefore if God is love, love is within me. His love is within me.  Through Him I have love for those who are easy to love and also practice loving those who are a little more challenging to love. I really do work at this. Within my family, friendships, workplace, heck even at Target when I want to run someone over with my cart or at least nip their heel. Don’t judge.

Grace. Acceptance. Remembering that everyone has a story that runs deeper than we might ever know.

Unconditional Love.  Meeting people where they are and loving them for who they are.

Why then on some days is it so hard to be more loving to myself? I am SO thankful for the gift of life. I’m thankful to be here, I am grateful to be me, to have this life. Navigating a chronic neurological condition since 2001, I cherish each day God gives me and the gift of good health. I truly do celebrate life. It’s one of the reasons why I want to go back to school to become a Wellness Coach. I want to help others to be well, to live well.  One of my missions is to help others to “love themselves where they are while helping them to become who they want to be.” Every day I want to live my life with a sense of urgency and the desire to honor God with my mind, body and spirit.

It’s on days like these that I need to spend extra time with God in prayer and scripture reading. When I do, I’m reminded of who I am and of His great love for me. Like the words of Jason Gray’s song- Remind Me Who I am:

When I lose my way,
And I forget my name,
Remind me who I am.
In the mirror all I see,
Is who I don’t wanna be,
Remind me who I am.
In the loneliest places,
When I can’t remember what grace is.

Tell me once again who I am to You,
Who I am to You.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You,
That I belong to You.
To You.

Some days I just need to slow down, to bask in and be awed by His great love for me.  To remember that I am a unique creation, a one of a kind original work, signed by God, sealed with love.

The LORD your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing. ~ Zephaniah 3:17

How crazy is it to think that God rejoices over our lives? That He celebrates who we are?

For every throb of joy in man’s heart, there is a wave of gladness in God’s.” -Alexander MacLaren

And so today I celebrate my selfie.  I will love myself where I am while working on who I want to be. Celebrating that I am healthy, I am whole. I am His and I am me.

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Tara Watson

Tara Watson

Tara Watson is married to her high school sweetheart and they have two kids. A recovering perfectionist meets extroverted introvert- the closer Tara Watson gets to Jesus the more she is learning to drop the labels.A few years ago, while battling a chronic neurologic illness nicknamed the suicide disease, she stopped questioning and started accepting that this too was part of God’s plan for her life. Once she decided to choose faith over fear, God began to radically change her life for the better. Building on this momentum, Tara stays focused on the urgent desire to be well and to live a life that honors Him. She strives to stay present minded and positive and to help others to do the same. Tara currently writes a wellness blog, co-leads a weight loss group and has a long term goal to be a Licensed Wellness Coach.
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15 thoughts on “Celebrating My Selfie

  1. ruth

    I so believe you in my head, and make it a daily discipline to believe it in my heart…this was a great reminder of my own personal challenge to ‘bask’ in His love. The books and coaches and friends all say…celebrate you and you can celebrate others more authentically…

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    1. Tara

      Basking in His love feels so good, scratching my head as to why I don’t do it more often Ruth.

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  2. Diane

    “How crazy is it to think that God rejoices over our lives?” Really, how crazy is that? And how wonderfully safe to know that our lumpy, bumpy bodies are loved, rejoiced over even. Thanks, Tara, for the reminder that through all of selfCrapping, we are loved. So loved.

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    1. Tara

      Self-crapping, now that’s a visual. All of our lumps and bumps are made for a purpose, and they are loved, so loved.

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  3. Jen

    I feel like I haven’t “seen” myself in 10 years so I really have a hard time with my selfies. Working toward finding myself again and hoping to “celebrate my selfie” sooner rather than later. I need to read this again!

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    1. Gretchen

      Isn’t it odd how in God’s eyes, yours is the body of a beloved survivor, and yet you don’t see that in the mirror? NOT poking at you, friend. Just amazed at how easy it is for all of us to focus on the outside. Darn it. I do it, too.

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    2. Tara

      You are so lovely Jen! To echo Gretchen’s sentiment, after all of the loss I’ve experienced in my life I get so agitated when I focus on stuff like this. At least I stop and catch myself now, I’m a work in progress.

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  4. Gretchen

    Love this, Tara. I think (because of Original Sin, actually) that we all have the memory of a goldfish when it comes to not only remembering God’s love for his children, but remembering that WE ARE his children, wanted and loved with an unfathomable grace and mercy. You go, gurrrl. Celebrate the heck outta your selfie. xo

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    1. Tara

      Yes! When I start the negative self talk I think of God shaking His head. After all I’ve given, why can’t this girl just feel loved and love who she is? And most days I do, and some days I’m a goldfish. Gonna keep on swimming though, swimming in His love.

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  5. Amber

    I struggle with my own selfie, especially in this stage of life, when I’m working on improving some things- getting healthy, finishing school, making life-changing decisions. It’s difficult to focus on the good when you’re trying so hard to fixing the broken. Your post is a nice reminder about that godliness/contentment balance. thx

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    1. Tara

      You said it Amber- balance. Constantly trying to juggle the idea of self improvement and self love. Of striving to be better yet be content.
      So glad that God is the Ring Master of my juggling act.

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  6. Natalie

    I love this so much, for so many reasons. Physical, spiritual, etc.

    And I just love how God rejoices over us with singing!

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    1. Tara

      Glad you enjoyed it Natalie!

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  7. Diane Tarantini

    So much to love here, Tara–selfies, Stuart Smalley, great song lyrics, and that particular Zephaniah quote! I love all these things.
    Am I the only one seeing a theme here in several recent posts–that we’re super hard on ourselves? We don’t get that from God so guess who we get it from? Boo:(

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    1. Tara

      I know! Why on earth do we constantly beat ourselves up? We wouldn’t say these things to others (hopefully)(well maybe some days).
      So thankful that He loves me for me.

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