When I was in 4th grade, my family and I went through some changes. We were living in Arkansas and my Dad got a new job up in Pennsylvania. Around the same time, my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. After a lot of prayer, they decided that my dad would move up to Pennsylvania while my mom, brother, and I stayed where we were. I could go on to tell you about my self-struggles during this time. About how for about a six-month period I starved myself, how I felt alone and abandoned, but that would make this story super sad. And, honestly, I’m not really feeling like sharing a sad story when there is so much good that came out of that really terrible situation.
So here are the happy parts of that story. I met Jesus and asked him to be the leader and forgiver of my life when I was in 5th grade, which has changed my life completely. I moved to the amazing state of Pennsylvania and get to experience all of the history that comes with it (I still love Arkansas though! WPS!). I met some of the most wonderful people and I became invested in a fantastic church, both of which changed my life and I am forever grateful for that.
A few years later, I went through another change. That change was college. I could not tell you about all the times I cried freshman year. I had a not so great roommate first semester and I didn’t really have any friends either. I called my mom weekly, if not daily, crying about how everything sucked. But you know what? Things got better. Second semester, I got a new roommate (who was, and is, so awesome!), I made some really cool friends, and I joined a Christian sorority that changed the way I view life.
Throughout all of these changes I’ve seen God. He’s been with me at the lowest of lows and highest of highs. I’ve seen His love in so many radical ways, that the only way I can explain why something happened the way it did is because of God. Joshua 1:9 (NIV) says, “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Looking back on my life, even if it is only 20-something-years, I see how God commanded me to do something, even if I didn’t know it, and He was with me. Always. No ifs, ands, or buts. He was there and continues to be there. God’s funny that way, I think. Just when things in life change, for good or bad, He’s there helping us out.
Our lives are always going to change. The only thing that matters is if we trust God to guide where our changes lead us.