It was a busy afternoon in the local grocery store. I stood near the cash registers in front of a dairy case as I talked with my mom. I said something to the effect of, “Yes mom, I am resigning from my current position and I am not sure yet where I am going to live, where I am going to school or where I am going to work.” (Very comforting to a mother’s ears!)
My mom told herself that day… “Either God has actually led my daughter or my daughter has gone absolutely mad.”
The former was true. God had been stirring in my heart for months prior to this conversation. The only piece I knew was that he was calling me to go back to school for counseling. No other details came together until the last minute, which of course had me hanging on to my faith for dear life. In this season of unknowns, I was often bombarded with questions and puzzling looks. I cried. I questioned. I doubted. I prayed. But in the deepest part of my soul, I knew this was where he had led.
[pullquote width=”300″ float=”left”] But I soon realized my efforts, apart from God’s leading, were not effective and also exhausting.[/pullquote]I wanted to figure everything out. But I soon realized my efforts, apart from God’s leading, were not effective and also exhausting. I began to ask God for just the next step. Sometimes, it was as simple as cleaning my room. (Really God?! Clean my room? I need answers here!!!) One time, the next step was to make a phone call and that very phone call, unexpectedly, was what led me to my grad school.
Grad school came together and I was able to live on campus. Then I found a job as a nanny for a family that has since become a big part of my life. And also, as a big bonus, after I resigned, a previous co-worker asked me on a date and we are now married! (I did not see that one coming!)
God led me to a new beginning. To many, it appeared as though I had gone mad. But sometimes that is what faith looks like to others. God knew what he was up to and I knew I didn’t want to miss what was on the other side.
A new beginning with God is always worth the risk.