I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living! ~Psalm 27:13
Life has recently provided a roller coaster ride. I have experienced the satisfaction of helping someone in a very practical way, the grief over the illness and death of a close friend, joy over good test results for my husband while walking with him through a rough couple of days, and the grief from a growing understanding of the shedding of innocent blood in our land through the tragedy of abortion.
I have had more spiritually challenging conversations with other people this month than I have had in the past year. It can be challenging to explain the sovereignty of God to someone who is going through a difficult set of circumstances. Sometimes I question their questions.
It’s not like I never doubt God. But, in His goodness, when it seems like there are a hundred balls coming at me, when things are really getting out of control and it looks like one more is coming right for my face, God is the Divine outfielder calling me off, shouting, “I got it! I got it!” He hasn’t dropped one yet.
A commentary I used to study through 1 and 2 Samuel a few years ago taught me to always look for what God is doing. It was fascinating to see the deep value in those passages as it looked at the work God was accomplishing in and through His people.
In life, in the good, the bad, the hard, the harsh, the fun, the rejoicing, and the weeping, that study has reminded me to ask, “What is God doing in this?” I don’t always see what He is doing. Sometimes I think I do, then I have to remind myself that I do not know the mind of God. I can speculate about what He is doing, but I never truly know what His purposes are.
Just asking myself the question reminds me that He is doing something, and then I remember that all He does is good. Even better than that, it is what is good for me, for my husband, or even for my friend, and ultimately, for her family. It is a comforting thing to rest in the goodness of the Lord.
In my day to day experiences, will I ever doubt God again? I know I will, more often than I should. In His grace, I believe He will remind me again of all that He has done for me through Jesus Christ, all those things that have worked out for my good, and I will trust Him for the next time.
Do you, too, sometimes doubt God? He is not surprised by it, He left us instructions to “be merciful to those who doubt” (Jude 1:22). Next time, will we will be willing to look for what good He is doing?
In His sovereignty, whatever the experience is, God is good. Sometimes we have to look for it in order to see it from our human perspective.
Do you and I truly believe that we will experience the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living?