My Own Mess
Sometimes I get caught up in my own mess. Actually, I get caught up in my own mess all the time. As of lately, I’ve been so caught up in my own ick that I’ve lost sight of some pieces of me.
In the bible study I’ve loved to be a part of this past semester, we talked about what Jesus says to us vs. what demons say to us. I know that I’ve talked about it before, but just to reiterate, I have anxiety and sometimes it gets the best of me. And in the midst of my anxiety, I feed into all of the little voices. All of the little voices that tell me I’m not good enough, I’m not pretty enough, I’m not smart enough, and the list goes on and on. But the one thing that stands out to me the most is the voice that tells me that I’m not going anywhere in life.
As a history major, there doesn’t seem to be any real doors open for me to pursue with just a B.S. degree. And with me going to school out of state and not really doing all that well in high school, going to a graduate school is in a very distant future. So with all of these little voices in my head that tell me I can’t or I’m not, there always comes a voice that says I can or I am. That voice is Jesus. And sometimes, that voice isn’t little and in the back of my mind. Sometimes that voice comes from my mom or my friends, my person or my sorority sisters.
Wherever it comes from, it brings me out of the pit my anxiety gets me into. Just when I feel like my life has no direction, that voice comes and tells me I have potential and I am going somewhere in my life. Sometimes I think we all just need to believe in ourselves a little more. Give ourselves more pats-on-the-back. Tell ourselves we are doing the best we can. That’s what I think Jesus would want us to do. Just believe in ourselves, because He believes in us more than we can think of.
When we feel like we aren’t going anywhere with our lives, just think about were we’ve been and where Jesus might want us to go. We’re lucky because we get to have a constant encourager with us at all times. And this encourager has a magnificent plan for us that we cannot begin to fathom. When we are all caught up in our own mess, Jesus is there to get us out and speak encouraging words of truth.
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- Daughter of a King - December 14, 2016
Anxiety is a brutal master. But God is bigger! And the self talk is actually really helpful, because God is crazy about you and always wants the best for you! You are worthy of all of your dreams. Go get ’em, Katie!
Katie – keep Jesus’ words on the tip of your tongue, on the top of your mind. His voice is louder than all the demons in all of hell, and he will prevail. Choose his voice, girlfriend, and you will see how incredible you are! And by the way, history is an awesome major; you just never know what interesting doors it will open. Love you, girl!
Ugh, Katie! You’re not alone. I hear the negative voices too! Last week, in fact. But then I remembered, no matter what they say, no matter what I do or don’t do, God will finish whatever he started in me. The trick for me is to keep my eyes (and ears) on him.
Katie! I’ve been feeling rather anxious all day. I made the decision to start a new adventure and I’m second guessing myself. Is this the right path? Will I be able to balance my commitment with everything else on my plate? Is this what God wants for me? What I want for me? Or both?
I have an over-scheduled day today, but I stopped to visit Grace and Such and your words spoke right to me.
Jesus’s encouraging voice came to me through you!
Thanks for ministering to me today. Everything you do is amazing and has purpose, even when you don’t see or feel it- God does. He sees right through our messes and into our hearts.
Thanks for these wise words-great reminder-and for your transparency, Katie. My tiny little meditation and guided breathing is grace in/praise out. Or Jesus in/stress out. XXXOOO