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The Riddle of Clarity

There is this riddle in my life:

What is something I constantly seek, and when I think I have it, it slips away in a fog?

Clarity.

I search for clarity in regards to God’s will, his calling, some nugget of direction, and it often alludes me. I feel like a person in the dark with arms outstretched groping for the light switch, but only finding the dimmer switch.

Not that it’s necessarily a bad thing.

There are clear things in my life.

It is clear to me that:

  • Just when I despair that winter will never be over, the dark green shoots of daffodils begin to break through the dull, winter-singed earth, and suddenly, there is the wondrous, yellow face of the flower boldly declaring to all that “spring is here!”
  • There is nothing so sweet as when my grandchildren say, “Nana.”
  • Laughter shared with people I love and cherish is the most beautiful experience.
  • As I inch closer and more quickly toward the bridge which will lead me from this world into the next, no matter how much I study and seemingly gain knowledge, I continue to live this life “looking through a glass darkly.”
  • The Bible is my source for living this life, not so much in where I go, but rather in how I go.

There is this lovely scene in the movie “The Shack” where Sarayu leads Mac into her garden to help her with a project. As they enter, Mac looks around at the wildness and disorder and declares the garden “a mess.” Sarayu quietly smiles and tells him it is beautiful, and the garden is actually his life. The camera begins to float up and we get a bird’s eye view of the garden. This chaos is no longer a mess, but a well-ordered mosaic of plants and flowers.

This scene caught me by surprise, and I gave an audible gasp. Tears came to my eyes as I realized that from God’s point of view, my life, which at times seems to be in hopeless disarray, is actually a work of art.

Photo Credit: Damien Weidner damienaweidner.co

While I have often desired the clear path, with answers to difficult questions, and knowing which way to turn, more often than not, I have journeyed in this life with one tentative step after another. Sometimes the steps have led to difficult places, sometimes to places of great joy.

If there is clarity in my life, it is in the knowledge that my life is totally dependent on God. I’m not as sure as I once was that He is as interested in the places where my journey takes me, as He is in the process of the journey. That is my faithfulness and trust in Him, my obedience, my regard for my neighbors, etc.

And this journey through life may always be one of steps taken – one after another- feeling my way as I go- always reliant on God. I guess when it comes down to it: I believe that clarity is more about the opening of our eyes to see the truth, than about the clear way of direction.

From His panorama, it all makes sense, anyway.

There’s a song from years ago sung by Rich Mullins, which tends to come back to me now and again:

Sometimes the night was beautiful
Sometimes the sky was so far away
Sometimes it seemed to stoop so close
You could touch it but your heart would break
Sometimes the morning came too soon
Sometimes the day could be so hot
There was so worth much left to do
But so much you’d already done

Oh God, You are my God
And I will ever praise you
Oh God, You are my God
And I will ever praise you
And I will seek You in the morning
And I will learn to walk in Your ways
And step by step You’ll lead me
And I will follow You all of my days

Sometimes I think of Abraham
How one star he saw had been lit just for me
He was a stranger in this land
And I am that no less than he
And on this road to righteousness
Sometimes the climb can be so steep
I may falter in my steps
But never beyond Your reach

Oh God, You are my God
And I will ever praise You
Oh God, You are my God
And I will ever praise You
I will seek You in the morning
And I will learn to walk in Your ways
And step by step You’ll lead me
And I will follow You all of my days
And I will follow You all of my days
And I will follow You all of my days
And step by step You’ll lead me
And I will follow You all of my days

 

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Rebecca Montie Preston

Loyal wife. Empathetic mom of 2. Permissive Nana to nearly 7. Caregiver to a variety of wile pets. Hopeful pessimist. Smasher of false narratives. Mystic wanabee. Gardener extraordinaire. Tolerable creative artist. Reluctant writer.Loved by God no matter what.
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12 Comments

  1. Diane Karchner on May 25, 2017 at 7:29 AM

    Thanks for giving clarity to the un-clarity, Becky!
    “I believe that clarity is more about the opening of our eyes to see the truth, than about the clear way of direction.” Seeing truth doesn’t make it to the To-Do checklist so it’s so easy to miss the need and simplicity of it! As usual your reflection gives me pause…

    • Rebecca Preston on May 26, 2017 at 8:24 AM

      Interesting. I see your point. The need for truth preempts the need for direction. Often we are looking so hard for direction, that truth is often pushed aside.

  2. Jen on May 25, 2017 at 1:55 PM

    “If there is clarity in my life, it is in the knowledge that my life is totally dependent on God.” Sometimes that’s the only thing I’m sure of.

    • Rebecca Preston on May 26, 2017 at 8:18 AM

      Exactly. Sometimes, I think clarity is over-emphasized. People, like me, feel that they have missed out on something when there is no clarity given. Perhaps, in the end, our lives are about following Jesus, one small step in front of the other.

  3. Michele S McMillan on May 25, 2017 at 2:41 PM

    Sometimes when I desire and ask for clarity, the Holy Spirit brings to mind Deut. 29:29, which says, “The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things that are revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may do all the words of this law”. The secret things are those things, good and bad, that we just can’t figure out “why”; however, the things revealed are His Word. Even when we don’t exactly understand His Word, it is given to us (revealed) so that we may obey it. We can only obey it by the Holy Spirit. Thank you for sharing your faith and dependence on God.

    • Rebecca Preston on May 26, 2017 at 8:21 AM

      Love that verse! I think the “why” might be known when we enter the fullfillment of His kingdom, and then, again, maybe it won’t matter once we’re there.

  4. Marilyn Bartha on May 25, 2017 at 7:27 PM

    “…clarity is more about the opening of our eyes to see the truth, than about the clear way of direction….”
    Amen! May my eyes be always open to see the truth even though it is not easy as seeing a clear direction.
    Thank you!

  5. Rebecca Preston on May 26, 2017 at 8:21 AM

    Amen!

  6. Diane Tarantini on May 27, 2017 at 4:03 PM

    Four things: I love your riddle. I have often searched for the same things as you–to know His will for me and to know His calling on my life. I want to see “The Shack.” And I love this song!

  7. Rebecca Preston on May 28, 2017 at 7:15 AM

    All I can say is: I’ve seen the Shack twice and cried my way through each time…but in a good way! Hope you can see it soon.

  8. Gretchen Hanna on May 30, 2017 at 8:29 PM

    I need to see the Shack, girlfriend! Also, this really spoke to me: “I’m not as sure as I once was that He is as interested in the places where my journey takes me, as He is in the process of the journey. That is my faithfulness and trust in Him, my obedience, my regard for my neighbors, etc.”.
    I have found that in my own tentative steps, too. I tell my young adult ministry that they need to take a step. If they are listening with their hearts, God will tell them when they’re out of bounds. I think He probably delights in their creativity.

  9. Rebecca Preston on May 31, 2017 at 6:51 AM

    I think the idea that we will have complete clarity is a guilt producer…it is more like taking a step at a time. It’s all about faith and trust, which seems to be a theme. 🙂

    BTW, I think you’ll really like The Shack!

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